Reverse Therapy for CFS/ME/FM

My experiences with Mickel Reverse Therapy.

Monday, September 26, 2005

My impending appointment with David Mickel

About two months ago David recommended that we see each other face to face as he believes that this form of communication (rather than email) will be far better for me. David wants to discuss 'Blueprints' with me, as he reckons its these things that are impeding my recovery. I'm not exactly sure what Blueprints are but from the context of our emails I think they are deeply ingrained patterns of behaviour.

So, my appointment is tomorrow. Its a big step for me, Scotland is a quite some distance away, but I do believe in the background of MT and so want to give this my all. I think that if this doesn't get me better then its time to give up on MT.

Oh, and my health now after doing too much a month ago? No change. Massive pains in my legs even if I do the slightest bit of walking (2/3 minutes). Here's hoping David will be able to suggest some magic.

Monday, September 05, 2005

Pacing

A week last Thursday I did too much physically. I had planned to visit my sister the other side of the country the following day. If I hadn't gone I would have noticed through my normal routine that I should do less and as I didn't have anything in particular to 'do' that would have been straightforward. However, I went to my sisters and I wasn't in my normal surroundings, or having my usual 'body protective' thoughts. On the Friday my muscles really ached. I should have stayed in bed and done very little to let my muscles recover. However, I was taken away by my adventure to visit my sister. I wasn't overly active, just as active as I 'normally' am. However, this was far too much for someone getting over doing too much for one day. I spent the weekend with my sister doing 'enjoyable activities' and unfortunately I'm paying dearly for not resting. For a few days I was in a lot of intense pain, and now I can just about walk for 3 or 4 minutes without having to sit down for a break. Its very uncomfortable to do anything physical. And unfortunately my life is now very uncomfortable. So this is my warning to those people who are told to 'dump' pacing. I know we are all different, and that might work very well for others, but people, just be careful.

Its nearly two weeks now since the initial over doing it day, and I'm really scared I've done some kind of damage to myself, that I won't get back to my 'normal' level of [poor] health. I normally recover in a few days. So I'm scared and worried. I'm now just trying to do as little as possible, hoping my muscles will repair themselves, but there's been no change this past week. Updates to come for sure.